RantFever 4

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Here's the rant I promised.

by: Lisa Clark | on: 2009-07-26 04:38:56

It’s because I’m an editor. Everything I do, everything I write, everything I say . . . I remember it when I’m trying to go to sleep, and I wonder “Why did I say it that way?” and “I hope they didn’t take that the wrong way—perhaps I should have expressed myself better” or “What if I accidentally offended them when I said this or that?” or “This is not coming across the way I wanted or expected it to.” or "Was it really necessary to bring that up?"

Then, I edit. I go through each situation I’ve lived through and formulate everything I should have done, everything I should have said, everything I should have written.

Sometimes it really is too bad I don’t do that as a profession. I think I’m pretty good at it. And this is one of the many reasons I try not to judge people, especially if I’ve only just met them—because if they judged me by the first impression, or the second, third, fourth, fifth, or even by a lifetime habit . . . well, there would be plenty of material to justify thinking I’m a really horrible person.

Comments

janeheiress 2009-07-27 18:14:12

I do that all the time--in fact, I did it last night! I considered messaging someone I talked to, to make sure something I said wasn't taken the wrong way, but thought that would be overkill. That is an idea, though. What would it be like to be able to stick your fingers into yesterday and edit reality?

el Seco 2009-07-28 01:52:25

Oh my, Green and Janeheiress, you two are so well-mannered and amiable that I can't imagine either of you doing anything more gracefully than you already do. Truly. Personally, I've never considered what life would be like with full powers of revision, and as I contemplate the idea now, I have recollections of the film Ground Hog's day play out in my mind. Perhaps it is best that none of us really has that ability!

Green 2009-07-28 11:05:01

Thanks, el Seco. That is really kind of you to say. I think you are very amiable as well. "Perhaps it is best that none of us really has that ability"--well, yeah, especially if it means having to wake up every morning listening to Sonny and Cher.

Trooper 2009-07-28 14:29:01

I'm sorry, I can't relate! I lay awake at night thinking of everything everyone else should have said or done differently. If you could tweak your nightly review of the day in this manner, you will have much less self doubt!